There is a tremendous webpage on this idiom which gives the necessary details and saves me from doing so. Find it here at this link. There is a reflexive sense of the necessity to act conveyed of course still but with some intervention of personal agency, as if the character speaking here was at the least in some control of their decisions and was expressing their agency in those decisions and consequent actions.
But necessity in that later formulation is a subjective necessity. When all realise that is merely regional TV all realise the error of this being any kind of enduring transition. But the made-up new person fails to impress his mother and her mates watching him on the political TV show on which he was invited and his father disliked his stance against migrant-focused racism.
The result:. You were ridiculously orange. But I find this strange. Deliberately created as a fiction, the monologue seems to fill a time-space hard to enter, with as much reference to Lagarce as anyone.
In a sense it is an illusion of how Louis wanted to appear to Elena as much as how he did. At its end he adds:. In an earlier blog post, I tried to eradicate my own personal investment in trying to understand this paradox in persons driven to abandon and reject others read it at this link.
This blog was prompted by this fine passage of narrative reflection:. Est-ce que je devenais une personne mauvaise? I hope we see here the same reflexive turning upon the self of many personae by other personae that inhabit his story and reflect on its progression as well as bring it back.
